What’s on my iPhone 8+ – 2017

I just got the new iPhone 8+ and I am a very nosey person and know that many people are nosey, so I thought I’d share with you what’s on my iPhone.

I got the new gold colour and it’s beautiful.

My lock screen is a picture of my mum and I at The Book of Mormon, that we went to see just the other night. It was a wonderful show and I really enjoy this photo of my mother and I.

My home screen is a picture of my dad and I only a few months before he passed away. As you can tell there was another person in the photo, but she wasn’t very happy and I love the way that my dad is looking at me in this photo. I’m also pretty sure it was the last photo of the two of us taken.

As you can see my tab is messages, Facebook, instagram and music. Three out of the four are the most used apps on my phone. At the top I have phone which I hardly ever use but have it out so I can find it – when I want to call someone it’s usually someone who I’ve recently messaged. This is because I HATE calling people I don’t know.
Next is calendar, which I never use but keep there so I can quickly find the date if I ever unlock my phone too fast. Then I have photos and camera, which I use sometimes. Hoping to begin using the camera more.

In the next line I have clock, which I use mostly in the morning to wake me up. Next to that is maps for when I have 0 idea of where I’m going. Next to that is my settings, I hardly ever use this but when I do I need it somewhere I can see it or else I completely forget where the hell it is. Lastly is calculator, I’ve just moved this which is going to be interesting when I go to use this. The reason I moved it is because I use it often in my work.

Next is my apple folder

These are many of the apps that came with the phone that I never use. You all know that apps that come with the iPhone so I won’t bore you with them all.

Then I have my phone folder which is just more iPhone apps that were on the phone to begin with.

Then I move to a new screen. I hate having so many apps over my background.

On the second page I have four folders across the top.

The first folder is my games folder.

On the first page of this folder I have Flappy Bird – the only reason I still have this is because it’s been deleted and I can’t even play it anymore on the new update. 2048 which I hardly ever use anymore but am keeping just in case. Doge2048 which is the same as 2048. CandyCrush Jelly I kept this just in case I want to continue playing this although I have deleted the original CandyCrush. Solitare and Spider, I’ve kept these in case I’m ever on a flight and want it. Dots, this is an interesting game and sometimes I like to open this to play to keep my mind occupied. Pharaoh’s Fire and Slots – P. Way are my slots games which I mainly use to get bonuses and play even though I hate playing slots in real life.

On the second page to start is Cody Cross, I actually really enjoy this game but have backed away because I don’t have enough time to just sit and read the questions. Cody Cross is like a cross word puzzle with different levels. Mario Run – I really should delete this because I don’t play this as you have to pay. I’m very much a if you have to pay I do not want. Word Cookies is a good word game and helps my brain work some days. Gardenscapes is very much like CandyCrush although I play this often and enjoy this because you can build things after a certain amount of levels. Match Land is a fun game where you have to match different colours and then the people kill the animals to eat. Word Connect is very much the same as Word Cookies. WordBrain is a matching in a 9 square grid which I get stuck on very often because my brain stops working when I get home. Lastly Homescapes, this is obviously a newer version of Gardenscapes and I enjoy it a little more as there are better ways to get the power ups.

Next is my social folder.

First is youtube, I use the app to watch videos while I’m in the bath or shower more than anything, I pop it up close and listen and I use it to watch people I’m not subscribed to on my youtube as I like them just don’t want to watch all their content. Next is the Westpac app which is my bank. Then I have the Event Cinemas app which is the cinemas closest to me. Snapchat is in this folder as well as I use this most days but I usually just use it through the notifications. Tumblr, which I actually have to delete because I’ve forgotten my password to my account and to my hotmail account attached to it. Domino’s, yeah that needs no explanation. TV and Movies is a tv guide for my area. WordPress which I haven’t used very much on my phone but there have been a few updates since I last used it which I’m keen on using more, now that I want to blog more. Lastly is Bitmoji and the only real reason I have this is for my Snapchat, not sorry about it.

The next folder is my photos folder, this is used for when I edit and upload onto my Instagram.

If you would like to know how I edit my photos for Instagram let me know in the comments below.

In this folder I have VSCO which I’ve just upgraded to VSCOX which I’m excited to use more of. I then have Squaready which is what I keep even though I know you can now upload pictures not in a square but I enjoy the square and think it makes it look clean and tidy. Then I have Pic Collage if I ever need to create a collage of pictures.

Next is my KISS folder.

This just has one app in it as I have deleted many of the others and I’m keeping the folder just in case I ever need to put more apps in here. The app in this folder is Clue, which I use to track my cycle.

Under my folders I have My Optus, which is the app for my phone plan, and helps me pay my bills etc. Next I have Messenger, this isn’t in a folder because I hate that it needs to be there but I need it close for when I use it, mainly for one of my closest friends. Then I have Spotify, which I should change for music but I KNOW I would get confused if I ever moved any of them. Lastly, I have Headspace, to find out about Headspace come back next week as I’m doing a full Meditation post.

That’s all that’s on my iPhone 8+ it doesn’t seem like much but it’s enough for me.

See you next week,

Jess xx


4 things they don’t tell you

I understand grief is different for everyone. I really do. But you’d think people would tell you all of these things.

  1. You’ll never be ready to let go.
    My dad had cancer, a pretty bad cancer. If I’m honest, it wasn’t long between diagnosis and death. I was obviously not ready and I was never going to be ready, because he’s my dad. But I know now, that no matter how long I had with my dad before his death I still wouldn’t be ready for him to leave.
  2. You’ll feel bad, but not on specific days.
    It’s funny how people are like “it’s ok to feel bad/sad” but to know that it’ll just randomly come along is the hardest part. Especially in a job where you can’t get away, you can’t just walk away when things get tough. In a workplace where most of them have no relationship with their dad, they have no idea. It’s hard and you’ll just break down
  3. The littlest things will break you.
    You’d think it’s those big moments, those special moments you had. But the things you’ll miss the most are the little things. The going and seeing them and just having a hug at the end of a very bad day. Talking about the stupidest thing and laughing at the little thing.
  4. You’ll feel empty.
    This is the biggest thing. You feel empty, where do you go, what do you do? When you’re so close to someone how can you ever feel full again. You’ll have days where you just feel like shit.


Another one bites the dust;

As another one of my brilliant ideas leaves, I think I need to take a moment. Step back and remember that my health comes first. In this instance, it’s not my physical health, it’s my mental health.

This week has been hard. I mean everyday for the past 3 weeks has been hard. But this Saturday afternoon, I broke, I’m hurt and I don’t know where my head is at in the ‘grieving’ phase. I’m still hurt here on Tuesday night, very much hurt.

I’m not ready for my life without him, I’m not ready for thinking about my life without him and I know I have to.

I hate thinking that life without him is my life now, I’m not ok. Life’s not ok.

Here are some pictures that make me happy but sad obviously.

Family Day 7/365

I’ve always been someone who is a big family person. When I was younger we’d always do things as a family. Not only as an intimidate family but also an extended family. Obviously as you get older those occasions lesson, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t any less part of who I am. These events still happen, they are just few and far between. But they always mean the world to me.

But with dads sickness it’s really shown what family means, not only to me, but to the rest of my extended family. The amount of phone class mum gets on a regular basis is insane, she’s overwhelmed but appreciates everyones thoughts and concerns. I’ve never heard so much from my dads side before. It just shows how much we all care and all enjoy the company of one another.

Friends Day 6/365

In my time I’ve had a very limited amount of friends. At each stage of my life I could count the amount of friends I’ve had on one hand. I’m not complaining about that. I have always said (thanks to my mother) quality over quantity. The only downside of this is at the moment the 3 people who I’m closet too are not anywhere near me.

At the beginning of the year my best friend moved. She’s been home a lot but with conflicting schedules I haven’t been able to see her and let’s be honest, with the amount of stress and hurt I’ve had this year it’s been tough.

But today I got to spend the day with her. It was nice and I’d love to do it more often than we do.

The Feeling of Coming Home Day 4/365

I find that days were Nice Guy is ‘home’ I find coming home at 3/4 a nice feeling. On days that Nice Guy isn’t here, I feel like home isn’t home and home is still at mum and dads. Some days I feel weird mentioning that but my house doesn’t feel  like home without someone around. Maybe it’s that I get more done when Nice Guy is here, I get to spend time talking to him in the morning and talk about my day. I spend A LOT more time offline with him here.

My heart is full when he’s here. My anxiety settles and my thoughts settle too. Nice Guy definitely is my settler. Thats what makes me coming home on days he’s ‘home’ easier and it feels like my home. He’s my calm. All of his annoyingness, all of his frustrations, all of his weirdness, he’s my calm.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt the homing feeling with anyone before. Maybe that’s why my anxiety heightened when I found out the information on Monday (it involved him and he wasn’t here). I also have never admitted that to myself and I think it’s something I needed to do.